Anyhow, November 19... my good friend lost his mother. She was also my teacher maybe 10 years ago. I remember the smile and warmth she shared to all her students especially the international students cuz she knew how difficult it may have been for us kids to be away from our families. I'm blessed to have a chance to talk to her one week ago. Though in hospital bed, her sweet voice and encouragement and love warmed my heart so much; so much so that my spirits were lifted. Life will never be the same for my friend.
That aside, it's not easy losing anyone especially the one we love, and especially the one we love and we hardly expressed our love and appreciation back. How do we transcend this? How do we learn to break through our shyness and express our appreciation and love just enough for the other party to feel and know? I guess there are numerous ways to express our love, just the kind that we are comfortable with.
Life ain't easy but we learn... we learn to just know enough to maneuver through life's course though we might never learn to accelerate through it. But I guess that's alright, cuz we learn there is no need to rush through life or more like there are many things in life not worth rushing through. We create the pace for our lives and this usually determines who we are, the relationships we have with those around, and the gratitude we seek, express and receive. Ultimately, we are no perfect beings.
Yet again, I learn... when we are gone; we are remembered for the goodness. Our smiles, warmth and sweetness are treasured by many. And ultimately, we can't feel for another; your pain ain't mine and mine ain't yours. But we have to learn, learn to understand why someone feels a certain way, why he/she thinks or acts in a particular way and even if we don't quite understand, we have to try to cuz that's how we connect and that's how we become better people. We just need to learn to listen and sometimes, when we feel ready and trusted, we learn to open our hearts too :)
