If we were to think about things. Everything changes, all the time, gradually and some things dramatically. Yet as human beings, we have this capacity to adapt to any kind of change - the human being is made so strong in a way. And many times when change occurs, we go searching for some kind of haven, some place we feel safe and secure, some space we feel invincible. For me, that thing that I turn to is writing. I write, sometimes venting, sometimes calm but they mostly are in my private space - a book that I feel has become my best friend throughout the years of my life. Not only has it been a friend in times of difficulty but also in times of joy and accomplishment, I turn to it. Writing has been my loyal listener - if this ever makes any sense.
This idea of change... somehow, it often occurs to me that I have to go through change alone. I don't know why but I have always felt the tests of another are often far greater than my own and sometimes, they're all too painful to be shared and accepted. I feel only the good changes are meant to be shared with another while the challenging ones I am not allowed to disclose. But I still want to be there for the changes of others but I don't need for others to be there for me. So I guess, it's true that it is possible to lie to ourselves. I probably lie all the time how I am all fine alone. Hmm.... such a mysterious world.
Regardless, I'm leaving on a jet plane soon... Hopefully I come back in one piece, if not, that's God's Will as well. I will make sure to continue to write my experiences and memoirs because there is one thing human beings cannot do... we cannot remember everything. We cannot remember the exact scene, nor the exact smell nor the exact feelings that occur in us at that very moment. To me, words and descriptions can take me back to that very moment to relive... I should probably someday write a post on how I started my writing journey... Till then, keep smiling my dear people.
