Haven't been able to sleep the last couple of hours and only ending up realizing something... Yes, we learn to look at needs when it comes to material things. But it doesn't quite work that way with people. There are many things in life that I may want but every time I give it a second thought, I would realize I don't need it. That's how I find comfort to the many things I don't go after. But I'm starting to realize I use this with people too. It's true I don't need them but I suppose I need to learn to want them in my life. Or else we will all just end up living alone.
For so long, I thought my life was my life. I make decisions for me and everyone else was secondary as they weren't responsible for my choices. But there's such a fine line between my decisions and living in harmony with others. They're interrelated and thus, so very tricky. Bottom line is that none of us really wants to be alone and we certainly don't need to be alone. I have come to believe there are people out there who want to go through all of it with us; all the joy and pain life has to offer.
Despite our past, we learn that life is a process. We grow each day and over the years, we become this very different person. Sometimes unable to understand the change or what exactly that changed us. Sometimes we don't understand why we were once a certain way. While some things don't come accepted easily by certain people, it's about lifelong learning. We just have to learn to open our inner eyes to see how far we've come, what we need and what we really want.
